Thanks Gaara613 for the upload!

No [x3]
Into the defect
The reason
The source
Of all this
Mysery
And extract it
Forever

What heals me kills me

I’m a natural assasin
A massacre in action
I’ve never known remorse
Or felt any compassion
This is my drug of choice
The reason demons rejoice
My rage remains a beast untamed

I bet you’ll remember me now

Glutton
I am heartbreak and depression
Regret without redemption
A wounded animal
Afraid of my reflection
I am an epidemic
This is a crime of passion
The willing weak deserve defeat
The penance will be savage

I bet you’ll remember me now [x2]

Bi-polar
Self-abortion
Mind fuck
Can’t escape
These chains
Of shame
I’m stuck
Swollen in the mud
Barely
Standing still
Hungry for the hunt
And the thrill
Of the kill

Come on
I’ve always been a shadow
Content with my disease
You’ll never see it coming
‘Cause you never notice me
Unload
Words are the remedy [x2]

What heals me kills me [x9]
The plague rages on

I’ve built myself out of ash and agony
I am ready
I
Am
I
I am my own creation, I am, self-made [x3]
Destroyers
I am I
A bone heals
A bruise fades
But art is forever

I Found This Oddly Depressing.

New Otep song off of their new album Smash The Control Machine. Thanks for uploading HerXVoiceXResides!

Come
With me

I will let you see with my words
I will let you burn & observe

But where I go
You can only follow

So close your eyes
Open your mind

…and see

Somewhere
Out in the dark

A car pulls up
& parks

& the passanger
Shifts nervously in her seat
& butterflies
Flutter in her belly

& the driver
Shuts off the engine
& moves a little close

She giggles a little
As he unbuttons her blouse

She pushes him away
& he whispers,
“aw baby, don’t be that way.
I took you out, I treated you right.
Now, don’t put up a fight.
Come on.
I only want to put the tip in.
Don’t fight, don’t fight. come on.
This is all your fault you know.
Just relax, let me do what I gotta do
& I’ll let you go.

Don’t you love me ?
Don’t you love me ?

DON’T YOU LOVE ME ?

Breathe in deep
A sea of desperate dreams
I have no mouth
& I must scream
Breathe in deep
A sea of desperate dreams
I have no mouth…

And somewhere
In a normal neighborhood
In a normal house

A normal family
Is falling part

And down the hall
The little ones hide

Frozen as fossils
As their mother cries

Listening
Now that the others have gone silent

The walls blister
As sister rises in defiance

Here
In the depths of the labyrinth
She will make her mark

She travels the cavern
Searching for the Minotaur

& she finds him
Asleep in the heat
Of his triumphs

A sparkle of flame
Flickers in hey eye

She nudges him softly
And says, “Daddy, wanna give me a try ?”

And he rumbles a roar,
“You must lick honey from a thorn
If you are to survive this night”

And she says, “no, I’d rather pick a fight.”

And he reaches out and she’s on the attack
And he’s face down and she straddles his back

Ans has the moonlight fades from his eyes
She sighs,
“come on, what’s the matter ?”

Don’t you love me ?
Don’t you love me ?

DON’T YOU LOVE ME ?

Breathe in deep
A sea of desperate dreams
I have no mouth
& I must scream

Breathe in deep
A sea of desperate dreams
I have no mouth AND I MUST SCREAM!

Whate we are
You too will become

Liberated children
Of a bloody-hungry god

Sedition!

They used to HANG women like me,
Strange fruit of the poplar tree!

They used to OWN women like me,
Necessary accessories!

They use to BURN women like me,
To quell the fires of liberty

In the blessed fertile orescent,
THEY STILL STONE WOMEN LIKE ME!

And one day you will say
Just look at her now!

…and as everything fades to black
…and as the jackals laugh in the aftermath

I’m not yours anymore

Thanks UrBreakablee for uploading!

I had this dream….
Where I woke up
To a grand commotion.
And uhm… I just jumped from the blankets
And whipped the door from its lock,
And rush blindly into the blackness of the hallway.
But there, on all sides
Lying next to each other
Were rows and rows of executioners…

Some were shirtless and __
And throbbing with anticipation.
Sweat delicatley sneaking through their body hair
All were hooded
Some like seventeenth century guillotine henchemen
Others had crudely made hoods
Like scarecrows or ripped ski masks
With slobber from their clenching jaws
And some had burlap masks that looked like they were made of human skin.

Each one held a weapon.
Large mallets
Crudely fashioned axes
And large clubs
Pipes

But I wasn’t compelled to retreat.

No.

I was forced to move between them.
Past their swinging weapons
The clubs
The bats
The slicing tools
The shovels
The large and small axes
Boards with nails, staples and razorblades embedded in them
Taking the beating,
Falling down,
Getting up,
Again and again and again and again
Driven to make it out…

At any cost.

And next,
I stumbled into a… this strange marshy world
Where I was oddly drowning in squirrels and other large, starving rodents.
From above, out on the treetops,
Several dolls fell from the branches
And they were hanging
With nooses made of human hair
They started biting and sucking and trying to feed from me…
Trying to enter my belly and some pushed large needles into my veins and…
And as I looked back, some had nails through their hands, torsos and throats.

I was froze.
Dead eyes…
Carbonized…
As I kicked them away
I could see all around me…
Of piles and piles of dead sea life.
Large fish, smelly crustaceans, __

And their soulless empty bodies whispered
A secret language I couldn’t decipher but somehow understood.

And their cries were
“Feed me… feed me…”

They wanted me to devour those around them
Chew them up into pieces
And smear them inside their mouths.
And as I turned around
I could see the shape of a woman
Perfect…
Perfectly erotic
Squatting over a pile of these dead things…
And as I ran to her and said “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!”

And she had no face
And she turned to glass
And suddently cracked
And then exploded into 1000 pieces at my feet.

And just as I took a quick breath,
This world was shoved and desimated
But an intruding tidal wave
Of microorganisms, exploding atoms…

And suddenly moon rose…
Frightened, aching, and alone…
And that’s what I remember most…

…The ache.

I can’t escape
The ache…….

Thanks Vempca for uploading!

Blasphemers and evil doers,

I come to you to ask for a moment of amnesia.

So let’s forget for a moment about the weapons of mass distraction.

Let’s forget for a moment that democracy was invented by the ancient Pagan Greeks.

And let’s forget for a moment about this morally superior, we’re better than you because we worship three nails and a pew witch hunt attitude.

They say might makes right. They say believe in the cross or you will be lost because all other religions in god are false. They say this is a Christian state that has never made mistakes. That only infidels burn in hell but I, I remember  well.

I remember the Christians that systematically slaughtered the Cherokee, the Navajo, and the Apache.

I remember the Christian who lovingly assassinated Lincoln.

I remember the Christians who forbid all women even Christian women from voting.

And I remember this one Christian who sent a bunch of other Christians to kill Non-Christians in a war over oil and metaphors and we didn’t even have a chance to fight for his Christian country and had his Christian father hide him in Texas.

And I remember that big pile of shit they placed in front of your face and told you to eat up.

Do you remember?

Of course you do, you saluted it.

You had your fork and knife ready to dig into that big steaming plate.

And now you want seconds, and thirds, until your appetite is forced to sleep by your apathetic glutheny.

But never you fear, the Sheppard is busy preparing another feast. Squatting in the heat of the kitchen. Piling it on thick.

And don’t worry if you can’t lift another bite to that sloppy mouth of yours, just open wide and they’ll shove it right inside.

Spoon feed, put to bed, goodnight America.

And remember, buddy, if the people ain’t sheep don’t blame the shit.

Thank you bloodyone for posting this vid on youtube!

 And it sounds like…armageddon
Sounds like…armageddon
Sounds like…cum and drink with me….
Cum and drink with me

And I remember him fucking me,
And I remember liking it,
I didn’t know any better…

And I remember the smell, and the pain, and the shame…
And I remember being afraid and thinking everyday,
Every single day.. that it was my fault…

Oh, but what happened to that little girl?
Who used to dream of one day ruling the world,
Who used to draw pretty pictures in my room—beneath the moon
Destroying to create
Softly praying to “God”

What do I do now?
What do I do now?

As I secretely masturbate…
But then I’d hear his hooves coming down the floor
With a Bible in his hand…

Softly opening my door and he’d say…

DAUGHTER! The day of your attonement is due!
Well there’s 3 million sinners out there…
and that includes you!

No daddy, don’t… no daddy, don’t…
LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!
NO, I DON’T WANT TO BE FREE! NO, I DON’T WANT TO BE FREE!
SO TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE
YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!

I’m bleeding, it’s not fair…

You see, there’s this little place I like to go…
I like to run and hide–deep inside,
Where all the nightmares are real, and all the monsters come alive,
Oh, but the things I’ve seen in soft, soft visions and terrifying prophecies,
Like serpents on the take and gods coming in all sizes and shapes
Nothing seems fulfilling anymore..

Well your temples are swollen in deceit and the body of your missionary,

He’s rotting… rotting in defeat mama?

MAMA!
Are the aliens coming to take us away? (mama?)
Is armageddon gonna happen again today?

LOOK WHAT HE DID TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!
HOW COULD YOU DO IT TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!

I will not cry… I will not cry…
I–PREFER–TO–DIE! than live–this life–of LIES!

KILL WHAT YOU CAN —- CHALLENGE EVERYTHING
Vengeance is mine…

Hey, I’m sorry baby…
please come back inside…we can laugh a little… and live and die,
no wait. see, eye got this hot pot of jonestown tea
And it’s been brewing for you and me,
Oh, it only takes one sip,
Come one baby,
Surrender your lips,
I can take you someplace nice…
I can take you…someplace NICE!

Breed my disease, be my disease…
Breed my disease, be my disease…
and vengeance will be mine
It’s closer than u think…

So I entered his room at 32 past noon
With my little ritual knife…
I cut out his tounge
Liberated his wife
She loved me for it other world woman,

Well, thats what she called me (Destroyer),
the one who sets you free, (cum and drink with me)

We all die like cartoons, surrender your children,
kids who like to kill, lies…[